Ohhhhh heeeyyyyyyy April. You snuck right on in here, didn’t you? I’m ready for you tho; oh yes, I am.

Corner, turned

I feel I have turned a corner. It’s a corner I’ve turned numerous times leading me back to the place where I started (like a West Wing walk & talk!), but a corner turned nonetheless.

I talked about the crazy mortgage refinancing process in February and happy to report it all eventually smoothed out. Mountain of papers signed and cash in the bank. This kicked off a bunch of long-awaiting fixes around the house which required me to keep the place respectable.

The corner turned … it is still in respectable order! Kitchen and bathroom counters all clear, dishwasher emptied when complete rather than using it as the clean dishes cupboard, hallway table devoid of neglected mail and ads & ends. I long fell out of the habit of cleaning up the kitchen and bathroom after every use when I was in my worst depressive state.

Blooming

The remortgage process required an appraisal which meant I had to pull up my socks and get things back in order. Although it was mentally exhausting to tackle some of the neglected closets, it was also reinvigorating and I felt like a shadow I didn’t know was stalking me had now lifted.

I was fearful I wouldn’t be able to keep it up the cleanliness fastidiousness but almost two months on all is still well. I got past that 21-day mark people say is measurement for creating new habits and it feels so mentally good.

It feels like a spring blooming, of sorts, in terms of getting my mind and heart re-set in ways I had neglected or overlooked for longer than optimal.

Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m off to buy some tulips and really hammer home this “blooming” theme. 😉